Pins and Needles

Doug and I wait on pins and needles. I let the emotions of the day flow, and flow, and flow while he hugs me.

Some of our nurse friends see us in the waiting room. They come in to say hi, give hugs, and comfort us. "Don't give up hope. He's a fighter. We have seen kids pull through worse situations," they tell us.

Then Dr Cavalier (our oncologist extraordinaire) calls as we are waiting. How did she know how badly I needed to talk to her right that minute??

"How are you doing?" she asks.

"I am freaking out. He is not doing well," I reply.

"We are just going to pray him through this," she tells me. What a perfect response!

She lets me know despite the fact we are with the bone marrow team now, she is still following us and keeping up with what is going on. In her perfect manner, she calmly explains to me from what she sees our main issue looks like fluid retention and that no signs of infection is a good sign. She tells me she has seen kids pull through worse. And she says, "Jensy has always been a fighter and that is a good thing right now".

My parents drive downtown too. My mom arrives with a big hug, and my dad brings his typical nerves of steel. It is always nice to have the support and love of mommy and daddy.

God knows exactly what I need to make it through this moment.

We get "the call". Jenson made it through the procedure. Miraculously, they got the dialysis line placed without needing the breathing tube. Praise God.

Now we just need it to work. They hook the machine up. Now we wait hoping it brings the mercy we have been praying about for Jenson...and buys us precious time.

Kristin