Blogger has just "upgraded" their service. I use the term "upgrade" loosely because I can no longer enter spaces between paragraphs or install the supposed program that will help. Get ready for a big giant run on sentence!!! Why do technology issues always flare up at the absolute worst of time? Enough of my ranting about the blogger "downgrade". We are doing our best to keep Jenson "pain free" as his body slowly deteriorates. At the hospital we have a rule - the attitude needs to be as upbeat and joyful as possible because that is how Jenson lived his life. Snuggling with Jenson is bringing me joy. But, when I am not here it is really hard to stay upbeat (unless I am with Sydney). I find myself wondering how I am going to get out of bed and face the day. Knowing I can have precious time with my sweet boy finally convinces me to get up. I depend on a "crutch" to get me going...my beloved Starbucks chai tea latte. On my way down to the hospital I cry to cleanse out the tears so I can walk in with the attitude Jenson deserves. It takes every ounce of strength I have left. The strength tank has been running on fumes for so long I am certain it is going to strand me someplace soon. Likely when he passes... it is a day I don't think you can ever prepare for and one I am totally dreading.