The book of Job in the Bible is really speaking to me right now. Here is a man who experienced the loss of ALL of his children.
Job 3:25
"What I feared has come upon me; what I dreaded has happened to me."
He grieves and cries out to God with genuine, unfiltered emotions - asking why, longing for a different ending, telling God he has no peace and rest, even crying out "What strength do I have, that I should still hope?".
What I feared has come upon me.
I faced my fears and my biggest fear (losing my child) still came true. I have no control over the master plan. But I like to feel in control - at least of something.
Control is an illusion.
Maybe that is the point.
Time to Remember
12 years ago
Dear friend, I pray that God will comfort you in this difficult time. There are no words that I could say that would be of help, but I am praying for you and your family.
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Gloria
After I found out my son had a terminal illness, I wanted to know everything about Heaven I could possibly know. I searched the Bible like searching for gold. I then heard of a book called Heaven, by Randy Alcorn. Besides the Bible, it's the most life changing book I have ever read. I know one day I am going to be in your shoes, trying to wander this world with a gaping whole in my heart while trying to hold on. I'm not sure if you are up for reading, and that's completely understandable, but I do think you would find great peace and comfort reading this book. It might lessen the pain just a tiny little smidge, to know more about where you sweet boy is at, safe with Jesus,healed, whole and perfect. Always praying for your family.
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