Mixed Feelings

Emotions swirl
Round and round they twirl

I try to keep them at bay
But today they won't go away

The tapes play back of all you suffered
X-rays, scans, scopes, chemo and others

I desperately wanted to take the pain
But nothing I did could make it go away

The emotional pain runs deep
So deep I can barely sleep

I finally let the emotions go
As down my face the tears roll

You know when I am having a hard day
On those days you send reminders you're okay

A butterfly sighting, a monkey here or there
A blonde little boy dancing as he enjoys the fresh air

You are transformed and now can fly
So I don't need to be sad or feel empty inside

You remind me of what is to come
When I depart this world and enter His kingdom